SITTING

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I SIT.
I TURN MY BACK 
TO MYSLEF.
I CREATE WALL,
SOLID, OPAQUE.
I DEADEN MIND. 
I AM QUIET, NOWHERE.
I TURN TO WALL,
DENSE, UNYEILDING,
CONCEIVED OF THOUGHT.
I AM WALL,
I AM NOTHING.
I SIT.
I PERCEIVE WALL.
I PERCEIVE SELF.
I PERCEIVE ANGUISH.
I PERCEIVE HOPE.
I PERCEIVE  NO SELF.
I AM NOT.
THE NOT I NO SELF PERCEIVES.
PERCEPTION IS ILLUSION.
ALL THOUGHT NOTHING,
ETERNAL NOTHING MERGING,
ILLUSION WALL NOTHING.
INWARD INTO NOWHERE,
NO ETERNITY NOTHING.
WALL IS MAYA.
SELF IS MAYA.
ANGUISH IS MAYA.
HOPE IS MAYA.
ALL ILLUSORY NOTHING.
NOTHING IS ALL.
NOWHERE.
BETWEEN THE INFINITE NANO.
ANCHORED IN THIS LIFE
BY MY BODY, BY LOVE. 
SORROW,  SHADOW  NOTHING.
ALL ONE  SWIRLING, DREAMING,
SWIMMING THROUGH NO LIGHT,
UNREAL ILLUSION THOUGHT. 
I  AM MY OWN WALL.
I DISSOLVE SELF NO WALL.
NO THOUGHT MERGED
SELF MINDLESS.
ALL MAYA.
I AM NOWHERE. 
I AM HERE.  
I AM DEAD.
I AM HOME.
I AM NOT.  
SIT. 
SITTING.
NOTHINGNESS.
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Bear … 02.19.2014