Terrible Balance



We live

As nomads


At a fork in

Fractal paths

Of honor

And love

And death

And all paths


Are filled

With the

Pain and

The danger

The death

The pathos

That is

Already known

No matter

What we do

We must

Keep living

Choosing the

Path of Beauty

Regardless of

What happens


Creating each

Step as a


Of caring

And compassion

To be




The ugly

Even though

It is all


As sand

Blown away

By the weather

Or helicopter’s

Spinning blades

Or that

Which is

Feared as

The fractal

Growth of

What I do

Not know

How to say

Or I am

Too much


To say

For I fear

The terrible


Of Good

And Evil

Bear . . . 07.13.2014
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Cleansing Whispers

There are
Are so
That small
Of their
Of beauty
The universe
Cleanse the
Of this
My soul
My heart
Is bathed
In light
Some of you, who have inspired this small poem, might even read it.
When you do read of your effect on the cosmos, you will know YOU are
One of these gorgeous human beings. I thank you for your beautiful light.
Bear … 07.03.2014
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dissonance the harmony of survival


always must 
there be a constant 
onslaught the other
from every side
everywhere inside
memory to  be
perimeter of
when one aspect
is repelled
another is taking
another front
or the same 
seeking blended
melded wrong
front and all
once only
regrouped same
more or different
constant everywhere
all the time
fighting passive
active overt
defense aggressive
disease disorder
dissonance the
harmony of survival
 fatigue overwhelming
until succumbing
surrender and die
in the end becoming
no other as one
Bear . . . 06.29.2014
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Starlight Warmth

There has come to be a time, 
When I can choose, to make yesterday
A time when I felt no pain,
A time when I was never young.
Young could become a fantasy,
Of youth, fleeting
For a moment of joy, or
Agony, that is no longer.
To let it all go,
The good goes with the bad,
There is nothing left
Of the inextricably entwined.
But I shall sky dance in the ocean,
Breathing in darkness and starlight,
And I shall sweat heavy tears of despair
In the eternal sun-hot misery now.
I choose to keep it all,
The wild joys and freedom of youth,
The bitter yellow betrayals,
The glories of life and love.
I want to swim in all of remembrance,
Before forgetfulness takes me away.
Darkness is mystery and the yet to be,
Starlight includes the all.
I am my own sun-hot frozen despair.
I am the starlight warmth of hope.
I am all of my own deaths and lives.
We are all that was and will be.
Bear… 05.24.2014
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BEAR: I have been thinking about the beauty of the Golden Rule.

BUMP ONNA LOG: Don’t tell me about the Golden Rule. I already know the Golden Rule. I learned it in Sunday School. I know I can never be a perfect as you are, but I do follow the Golden Rule. Not like you, with your all the time yammering. I don’t go to church or profess my beliefs, but I do follow the Golden Rule. For example, I don’t talk to you because I don’t want you to be jabbering at me.

BEAR: I am so glad that you are keeping thoughts of goodness and reciprocity in the fore of your mind. The Golden Rule is an important premise of guidance for daily behavior. However, sometimes, I am concerned that, maybe, you don’t really want those closest to you to treat you as you treat them.

BUMP ONNA LOG: Well see, this how I know I am better than you. I don’t have  that misgiving.

I know that if I  treat MYSELF as I want others to treat me, then  I make it easy for everyone. Those close to me don’t have to decide if they want to share with me. They just do.  It all works out for the best.  I’m setting a good example of how to behave properly towards me.

I always make sure my own needs and my own wants are cared for first. I don’t have to think about it.  I KNOW that I am important, and that I am loved, so everyone wants ME to have what I want. If my family sacrifices for me to be able to do what I want, that is because I am helping them to be generous by just taking the best and biggest, the heart out of the middle, first. That way nobody has to be concerned about it or worry about if they are sharing enough with me.  And I don’t have to be concerned if I am fair or too greedy, because I always have what I want, and sharing the rest (well, if there is any) is easy.

I wouldn’t want anything if, on some level, I didn’t NEED it. If I want it, I NEED it. So it is, by my rights, owed to me. I follow the rules, especially the Golden Rule. If there are any left-overs, that I am not saving for personal reasons, I’ll let those I want to know, know.  And if they can justify their begging to my satisfaction, of course I’ll dole out enough that I know I am still the better person. After all, I am the adult, I am a responsible person.

BEAR: Do you conceal largesse?

BUMP ONNA LOG: Of course. It is only sensible, I might want something tomorrow!! I have my own ongoing needs, so it is only wise to be prepared. I’m doing my family a favor by keeping their begging to a minimum. That way I don’t have to constantly be reminded of chronic problems, and they don’t have to be humiliated.

BEAR: I don’t think I can talk about The Golden Rule with you, just now.

BUMP ONNA LOG: Good.  You talk in gibberish, anyway.  Blah blah blah with all your busy-body nosy questions.

Bear … 04.28.2014

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Matthew 7:12 KJV
12 Therefore all things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.


Golden Rule – Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia



Symetry of Theft

Is jealousy of creation a part of  human nature?
Is it innocence to assume that all flowers
Are for the plucking? Is it righteous to
Reach out and take take take take take
Calling the self both messenger and author?
Is it human nature to pluck the best?
To hunt through the ordered gardens and the wilderness
Gathering the prettiest and the most significant,
Plucking the flowers from their context
And claiming, “Now this is mine.” ?
Why not take all the best that you can perceive?
Why not take what moves your soul? Take take, take take .
Take what brings some comfort.  Take take take take.
Why should the intensity of your wanting
Not be justification for thieving actions?
If there is beauty in the wild,
Is that Wildness available for the plucking?
Are there no consequences for your taking taking
Taking taking taking taking taking.
There is always balance in nature.
There are always consequences.
The flattery of your wanting is insufficient.
The Universe cares not for flattery.
When beauty flows into your heart,
Does that make you the author or the audience?
You vandalizing thieves who have destroyed
With your careless critical trampling;
You flattering greedy plagiarizing soul cannibals;
You deceive only yourself that you are the art,
Yourself the artist and the gardener.
You trolling gatherers of art’s life blood,
Think that there is no price to pay. Wrong.
Restitution is always made. Balance is a contract
With the Universe, made before the birth of beauty.
Think on symmetry when you claim what is not yours …
Da! Da! Da!
Through all strata of creation balance is maintained.
Bear … 04.23.2014
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Tidal Beings

Living in a dream of love
Lifetimes all flowing as a river sourced
The immortal well spring of eternity
Pouring forever into always ocean
Life histories streaming together
Tidal beings circadian cycles
Waxing and waning
Spiraling lifetimes unending
Through tantra whirlpools seeking
Evolved the eternal river returns
All lifetimes all experiences
Are but a shimmer reflected
Back from the illusory veil
Bear … 03.28.2014
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According to Tibetan Buddhist Tantric master Lama Thubten Yeshe

“…each one of us is a union of all universal energy. Everything that we need in order to be complete is within us right at this very moment. It is simply a matter of being able to recognize it. This is the tantric approach.”

Yeshe, Lama Thubten (1987). Introduction to Tantra:The Transformation of Desire (2001, revised ed.). Boston: Wisdom Publications. p. 4. ISBN 0-86171-162-9.


WAR –Music Themes

What else is WAR other than a nightmare parade, a carnival of lost souls?
Nightmare Parade — Carnival of Lost Souls — Nox Arcana

The poetic Gaeilge languages seem to have a built in understand the relationship between terror and the control of others .   In language origins there is an association between this terrible power or terror power and with greatness. The construction of all languages and the basic root words give us more than hints and about our individual cultural perspectives about  what WAR is and what situations require WAR.
Queen of Crows — Two Steps From Hell — Thomas Bergeron

The Morrigan  is the Queen of Crows
“… the Irish “Morrígan” has its roots either in a word for “terror” or a word for “greatness”.”
This dance excerpt clip  from a Chinese made film dramatizing the Rape of Nanking
Nanking was only one monstrous atrocity. Our World History is filled with atrocity. How is it that there are still persons who wish to commit yet more atrocities? There are those who are committing horror on others at this very moment.
There are many well made and beautiful films and symphony scores which glorify massacres, genocide, and the horror we inflict on each other. I chose this clip because, being a caricature, it is not so beautiful in the terrible way that much    WAR drama is.
City of Life and Death — Nanjing! Nanjing! —

Beethoven said all he had to say about Napoleon and “his” WAR  is in the Eroica.  He says it much better than I.
Beethoven: Symphony No.3 –  Karajan (unabridged 50 minutes 35 seconds)
Ludwig van Beethoven (1770-1827) — Symphony No.3 in E flat major, op.55 “Eroica”
“Beethoven: Symphony No.3 In E Flat, Op.55 -“Eroica” – 3. Scherzo (Allegro vivace)” by Berliner Philharmoniker
How many WARs are begun as simple misunderstandings, misinterpretation of language?  Not many, I think. Deceit is no accident. Evil disguises itself in ideology and hides behind twisted language.  Conflict and confusion is sowed for the purpose of WAR.
TOWER OF BABEL — Frank Lindamood

WAR  Mongers take heed. Not all judgment is divine. Perhaps you will be judged by the Mothers of Men.  Ye who force others to fight for reasons that should not be are cursed already.  You have cursed yourselves.   What should be our judgment?   Can a Being with no soul experience judgement?
Fire — Angels and Demons — Hans Zimmer
HansZimmerVidz’s channel
In the end, it is love, not fear or the terrible glory of death, that prevents us from completely annihilating one another with  WAR. Most of us have grown up with the good fortune of Damocles hanging over our infant cradles. This good fortune has been gently swaying over our heads since before I was born.  Is it possible to remove this Sword of Annihilation from our beautiful Earth?
https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2013/03/15/march-15-time-lapse-of-nuclear-explosions-1945-1998-by-isao-hashimoto/ Time lapse of all nuclear explosions from 1945 to 1998 by Isao Hashimoto This map does not include any explosions after 1998.Are 2053 enough, already? Included are the  1945 World WAR  II explosions.

Sting – Russians –Live — Berlin 2010,

Can the horror of WAR  actually be transcended with music? Does making the aftermath bearable allow us to do it all over again?
Dmitri Shostakovich – Symphony No. 7 “Leningrad” ( 1hr 17 minutes 15 sec)
Valery Gergiev, conductor   —  Mariinsky Theatre Symphony Orchestra
Dmitri Dmitriyevich Shostakovich (25 September 1906 — 9 August 1975)–
Opus 13
Ruaumoke is being asked to lend strength enough to shake Earth’s womb into giving birth to a volcano of power to defeat enemies, in this case the strength that in other times was used for  WAR , is now is used in ritual non lethal battle, or a sports arena.
HAKA — Ruaumoko — Te Matatini O Te Ra — Wetini Mitai Ngatai and Miriama Hare

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hadrian’s_Wall  WAR  has changed the face of the Earth.
Another Brick in Hadrian’s Wall — Hans Zimmer

WAR  is often glorified as leisure amusement
HELL MARCH 3 — Frank Klepacki

The are three versions of this music that Frank Klepacki composed for a game series Command and Conquer  used to accompany military video clips.
Red Alert China —http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=_dLzgPa28Ds
Red Alert 2 .. from the WAR  game Command and conquer Red alert 2 —http://www.youtube.com/watch?
Red Alert 3 Soviet—http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_detailpage&v=n8TCyszwyWE
a href=”http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Samurai”>http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Samurai
Very few of our  societies did not in the past nor do not now have a WARrior class.
Kodo Ibuki Taiko —  侍  戦争   練り歩く  音楽

EVA for March 13, 2014, challenged us to think musically about WAR  .
For March 20, 2014 we shall consider the   VERNAL EQUINOX .
EVA:  http://47whitebuffalo.wordpress.com/2014/03/13/war-a-few-musical-pieces/
I wanted to touch on our Civil WAR and the introduction of the Draft (conscript military service), and World WAR  I and how World WAR  II was a continuation of WWI and how WWI was left over from older times. I wanted to touch on how many of our current conflicts and wars are not really new, but are part of the aftermath of unresolved older WARs …. As with anything else, there is no way to separate out anything from everything else. All of history flows together. We are what we are.

Sunday Bloody Sunday– Seconds — New Year’s Day — Like A Song… — Drowning Man –The Refugee — Two Hearts Beat As One — Red Light — Surrender –“40”
WAR   U2   1983 (full album 42 minutes 27seconds)

Bear …03/08.2014