Nothing, Etc.

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Gone
Gone
Nothing gone
My idea of myself as helpful
Gone
My idea of myself as worthwhile
Gone
My idea of myself as loveable
Gone
My idea of my own value
Gone
My idea of my self as wanted
Gone
My idea of the value of what I do
Gone
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I have human value to you
Only if I do
What you do not want to do
When you do not want to do it
Unobtrusively, discreetly, and
I if do not mention anything
Except perhaps things
Of your personal interest
You call that being loving
I am Nothingness
Nothing self
Nothing value
Nothing
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And if I remain available to do
What you do not want to do
When you do not want to do it
Unobtrusively, discreetly, and
I do not mention it
You call that being loving
Nothing comfort
Nothing helpful
Nothing
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If I am unavailable it is because
I am irresponsible
I have abandoned you in your need
I am negligent
But if I am available then
I am offensive
Obnoxious
Intrusive
If I touch you I am
Hovering
Bothersome
Irksome
Unwanted
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What I have become is
Selfish to think at all
Selfish to notice I feel
Do I feel
Am I nothing
Am I gone
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Nothing gone
Nothing mind
Nothing love
Nothing desire
Nothing humble
Nothing ideas
Nothing opinions
Nothing forever
Nothing lost
Nothing together
Nothing honor
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing body
Nothing duty
Nothing selfish
Nothing useless
I am Nothing
You are Nothing
All is Nothing
Nothing together is gone
Nothing
All
All One
Worthless and valuable
Rejected and merged
All One
Nothing
Nothing
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If only ……
Oops!
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Start over….
Nothing
Nothing, etc.
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Bear … 02.12.2014

ⓒ Bearspawprint
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