SITTING

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I SIT.
I TURN MY BACK 
TO MYSLEF.
I CREATE WALL,
SOLID, OPAQUE.
I DEADEN MIND. 
I AM QUIET, NOWHERE.
I TURN TO WALL,
DENSE, UNYEILDING,
CONCEIVED OF THOUGHT.
I AM WALL,
I AM NOTHING.
I SIT.
I PERCEIVE WALL.
I PERCEIVE SELF.
I PERCEIVE ANGUISH.
I PERCEIVE HOPE.
I PERCEIVE  NO SELF.
I AM NOT.
THE NOT I NO SELF PERCEIVES.
PERCEPTION IS ILLUSION.
ALL THOUGHT NOTHING,
ETERNAL NOTHING MERGING,
ILLUSION WALL NOTHING.
INWARD INTO NOWHERE,
NO ETERNITY NOTHING.
WALL IS MAYA.
SELF IS MAYA.
ANGUISH IS MAYA.
HOPE IS MAYA.
ALL ILLUSORY NOTHING.
NOTHING IS ALL.
NOWHERE.
BETWEEN THE INFINITE NANO.
ANCHORED IN THIS LIFE
BY MY BODY, BY LOVE. 
SORROW,  SHADOW  NOTHING.
ALL ONE  SWIRLING, DREAMING,
SWIMMING THROUGH NO LIGHT,
UNREAL ILLUSION THOUGHT. 
I  AM MY OWN WALL.
I DISSOLVE SELF NO WALL.
NO THOUGHT MERGED
SELF MINDLESS.
ALL MAYA.
I AM NOWHERE. 
I AM HERE.  
I AM DEAD.
I AM HOME.
I AM NOT.  
SIT. 
SITTING.
NOTHINGNESS.
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Bear … 02.19.2014

Nothing, Etc.

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Gone
Gone
Nothing gone
My idea of myself as helpful
Gone
My idea of myself as worthwhile
Gone
My idea of myself as loveable
Gone
My idea of my own value
Gone
My idea of my self as wanted
Gone
My idea of the value of what I do
Gone
.
I have human value to you
Only if I do
What you do not want to do
When you do not want to do it
Unobtrusively, discreetly, and
I if do not mention anything
Except perhaps things
Of your personal interest
You call that being loving
I am Nothingness
Nothing self
Nothing value
Nothing
.
And if I remain available to do
What you do not want to do
When you do not want to do it
Unobtrusively, discreetly, and
I do not mention it
You call that being loving
Nothing comfort
Nothing helpful
Nothing
.
If I am unavailable it is because
I am irresponsible
I have abandoned you in your need
I am negligent
But if I am available then
I am offensive
Obnoxious
Intrusive
If I touch you I am
Hovering
Bothersome
Irksome
Unwanted
.
What I have become is
Selfish to think at all
Selfish to notice I feel
Do I feel
Am I nothing
Am I gone
.
Nothing gone
Nothing mind
Nothing love
Nothing desire
Nothing humble
Nothing ideas
Nothing opinions
Nothing forever
Nothing lost
Nothing together
Nothing honor
Nothing
Nothing
Nothing body
Nothing duty
Nothing selfish
Nothing useless
I am Nothing
You are Nothing
All is Nothing
Nothing together is gone
Nothing
All
All One
Worthless and valuable
Rejected and merged
All One
Nothing
Nothing
.
If only ……
Oops!
.
Start over….
Nothing
Nothing, etc.
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Bear … 02.12.2014

ⓒ Bearspawprint
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Sentient

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From the endless cycle
I’ve been set free
I dance the Dance Insane 
No more eternal pain
The repeating cycle
Forthcoming return again
And again and again
Escape from forever
Is to ask for repeat
All illusion in alone
Compassion for tomorrow
The ending is the start
Sentient volunteering
Always forever not apart
Repeating together
Sharing all fate
From consequences
We cannot part
More life yet unborn
Future of more centuries past
The stars and music and history
Cosmic dream dancing death
All is illusion
Reality of nothing at last
Can mean what you like
The meaning’s all one
In its infinite forms
Resonance incarnate
Cosmic music fun
Toiling struggle peace
Nothing Nothingness
Everything Nothing
Infinite Nothing
Empty Nothing
Void Nothing
Eternal Nothing
Never and Nothing
Compassion Infinite
Timeless and Clocked 
All and Nothing
The same
All One
All One
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Bear…02.09.2014

It’s alright. I’m ok.

ⓒ Bearspawprint

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Removed

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I am removed from self
Removed from heart
Removed from this world
.
Empty void once self
Empty void heart
Empty void this world
.
Nothingness all self
Nothingness all heart
Nothingness all this world
.
Perception is not the self
Perception is not heart
Perception is not this world
.
Eternally removed from self
This empty void is heart
Nothingness all this world
Perception of the empty void nothing
.
No self
No heart
No world
.
Empty
.
Removed
.
Nothingness all same no one
.
Bear…02.01.2014