.
.
From where
May I
Summon energy?
My body
Has none.
.
Nerve fatigue
Overwhelms.
I am running
In deficit.
.
Sometimes
Effort,
Beyond my
Capabilities,
Is required.
.
I must borrow
From tomorrow.
.
The Chi is
Becoming equalized
Within my body,
And surrounding.
.
I must evoke
A great deal
Of Granny Magic.
.
I am grateful.
The Magic
Is possible.
.
This long day
Will become
A happy memory.
.
The morrow
Of returns
Will come
Soon enough.
.
Today,
A small child
Is expecting
Her Granny,
With open arms.
.
Granny Magic
Turns everything
Into love filled fun.
Children know.
.
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Bear … 09.02.2014
ⓒBearspawprint 2014
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Drudge of Joy
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What can I do?
There is nothing.
I can only begin
The start of almost,
Then all energy is depleted.
I initiate the end
Without ever beginning.
Spirit must fill the void.
Spirit must force my body
To clear away the dangers.
My shame is in weariness.
My strength fails me.
Where is the will?
Sometimes effort
Makes no difference.
Too much is damaged.
Too much is lost.
Too much.
So now I begin again,
Feast preparations.
For the children
And the children’s children,
I am a drudge of joy.
The joy is real,
The work a torment.
Perhaps again the
Punishment can be delayed.
Please let it be so.
How can I allow collapse
With so much expectation?
The dread is real,
The flares of electric agony
Are real also.
Pain is exhausting without
Relief for rest.
Distraction is the relief.
Words written to myself
My resting peace.
May this peace be enough.
Please let it be so.
I am a drudge of joy.
.
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Bear … 04.04.2014
ⓒ Bearspawprint
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CUSTODIAN OF COMFORT
THE CUSTODIAN OF COMFORT IS A STINGY S.O.B.
Safe ——- by Bear
That “I wasn’t aware”
Does not mean I do not care.
It’s merely that
Your burden is not mine to bear.
My own back is stiff
But not in pain, certainly not the agony
You purport yours to be.
*******
*******
That you live in misery
Is plain for me to see.
If I suggest “Why don’t you go
Back in your little room?”
It isn’t really fate and doom.
I merely prefer to not see
What you have come to be.
*******
*******
If you have movement issues
And stagger and fall,
I’ll assume and accuse
“Too many pills won’t cure all ills.”
Even though I know you
No longer have any meds at all.
*******
*******
But if you cry in despair
As your sting-nettle skin
Burns with electric sizzles in the air
And I say
“Can’t you just take a pill and feel better?”
Even though I do know you
No longer have any meds at all.
*******
*******
When the Jinn pull your hair
And whisper curses in your ear,
Alien words that I will never hear,
It doesn’t mean that
I don’t care
It’s merely what I prefer,
When I say “I wasn’t aware.”
*******
*******
So if you love me
Go.
Hide your pain and misery.
Stay in your little room
Wallow alone in your damned
Doom and gloom
So what if your nerves are shot?
Please know that mine are not.
Don’t ask me for sympathy.
Go. Let me be.
*******
*******
It’s not that I don’t care,
I just want to be safe when I say that
“I wasn’t aware.”
*******
*******
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