I SEE

.
.
I kissed
A dream
Parting maya
Veils Swirled
Talking
Telling me
My True Love
Has always
Loved me
Though
Smirking
Only
At the corners
Of lips
Withholding
His own kiss
He whispered
Tenderly
One truth
You have
Every reason
To mistrust me
My arms
Encircled
A fantasy
Unconditionally
Loving
The void
.
Agawela … 08.09.2016
ⓒBearspawprint2016

I SEE ⓒBearspawprint2016

I SEE ⓒBearspawprint2016

Gentle Geneviève

.

Why can

There not

Be love

Without

Heart break,

The million

Small deaths

Before death?

.

Why must

Joy be

Balanced

By sorrow?

.

Must we

Ascended

Mountains

On the same

Path leading

Home to

The abyss?

.

There is

No safety,

Even in the

Heart of

True love.

.

Respite

Resides 

Only

Beyond

The veil.

.

Bear — January 8, 2015
ⓒBearspawprint2015

Too Late Words Have Become Music

.
.
Is it too late
That we travel
Past the warnings,
That we dance
In the sky, that we
Dream in the sea?
.
Is it too late
That the words
Have become music,
The music our dreams,
Dreams become clouds,
Swirling symphonies of stars?
.
Is it too late
That we part the veils
To return to our sleep
And rest, sweetly reposed
In eternities
Of infinite song?
.
.
Bear … o8.18.2014
ⓒ Bearspawprint 2014
.
.
.

Terrible Balance

.

.

We live

As nomads

Camped

At a fork in

Fractal paths

Of honor

And love

And death

And all paths

Forward

Are filled

With the

Pain and

The danger

The death

The pathos

That is

Already known

No matter

What we do

We must

Keep living

Choosing the

Path of Beauty

Regardless of

What happens

Mindfully

Creating each

Step as a

Footprint

Of caring

And compassion

To be

Possible

Balance

Against

The ugly

Even though

It is all

Ephemeral

As sand

Blown away

By the weather

Or helicopter’s

Spinning blades

Or that

Which is

Feared as

The fractal

Growth of

What I do

Not know

How to say

Or I am

Too much

Afraid

To say

For I fear

The terrible

Balance

Of Good

And Evil

.
.
Bear . . . 07.13.2014
ⓒ Bearspawprint 2014

.

.

 

 

 

Just Under Mind

.
.
Detours through Gwa Gwa take one just under
Mind from Maya are confusing when you’re new
Dimensions and reflections seem mysterious
The sign posts most peculiar and very few
.
Though residents don’t live there they do come
And go swarms of hopping people looking fleas
Fatigue and pain and sorrow are unremembered illusion
For soothing comfort one never needs beg or say please
.
Cycling through lost polar time manic blinking
Away seasons and hours pain multiple insane
There is glory music to accompany curving space
The upward wonder crescendo that doesn’t wane
.
When I traveled most in Gwa Gwa’s realms
Of course I actually dwelled in my Mother’s home
But detours over Gwa Gwa horizons allowed
My soul to dance flying in dreams I could roam
.
I was much blessed to be able to stay awakened
Awareness securely anchored behind Hell’s threshold
While innocent childish spirit wandered Gwa Gwa free
I loved my human demon keepers bought bought and resold
.
.
Bear … 03.11.2014
ⓒ Bearspawprint

.

.

 

SITTING

.
.
.
I SIT.
I TURN MY BACK 
TO MYSLEF.
I CREATE WALL,
SOLID, OPAQUE.
I DEADEN MIND. 
I AM QUIET, NOWHERE.
I TURN TO WALL,
DENSE, UNYEILDING,
CONCEIVED OF THOUGHT.
I AM WALL,
I AM NOTHING.
I SIT.
I PERCEIVE WALL.
I PERCEIVE SELF.
I PERCEIVE ANGUISH.
I PERCEIVE HOPE.
I PERCEIVE  NO SELF.
I AM NOT.
THE NOT I NO SELF PERCEIVES.
PERCEPTION IS ILLUSION.
ALL THOUGHT NOTHING,
ETERNAL NOTHING MERGING,
ILLUSION WALL NOTHING.
INWARD INTO NOWHERE,
NO ETERNITY NOTHING.
WALL IS MAYA.
SELF IS MAYA.
ANGUISH IS MAYA.
HOPE IS MAYA.
ALL ILLUSORY NOTHING.
NOTHING IS ALL.
NOWHERE.
BETWEEN THE INFINITE NANO.
ANCHORED IN THIS LIFE
BY MY BODY, BY LOVE. 
SORROW,  SHADOW  NOTHING.
ALL ONE  SWIRLING, DREAMING,
SWIMMING THROUGH NO LIGHT,
UNREAL ILLUSION THOUGHT. 
I  AM MY OWN WALL.
I DISSOLVE SELF NO WALL.
NO THOUGHT MERGED
SELF MINDLESS.
ALL MAYA.
I AM NOWHERE. 
I AM HERE.  
I AM DEAD.
I AM HOME.
I AM NOT.  
SIT. 
SITTING.
NOTHINGNESS.
.
Bear … 02.19.2014

It’s Gone Now — Mayan temple in Belize used for road fill is not the first one destroyed

 

Mayan Pyramid Destroyed to Get Rocks for Road Project

Read more:  http://blogs.smithsonianmag.com/smartnews/2013/05/mayan-pyramid-destroyed-to-get-rocks-for-road-project/#ixzz2Tl9Q7Dfe

Another Mayan Ruin in Belize. Not the one that was  destroyed. Image: Rita  Alexandrea

 

In Belize, they needed to build a road. Roads require rocks, there happened  to be a really convenient, large pile of rocks for the construction team to use  nearby. It also happened to be one of the largest Mayan pyramids in the country.  Now that pyramid is gone, destroyed by bulldozers and backhoes.

The construction company building the road appears to have extracted crushed  rocks from the pyramid to use as road fill. The pyramid, called the Nohmul  complex, is at least 2,300 years old and sits on the border of Belize and  Mexico. It’s over 100 feet tall, the largest pyramid in Belize left over from  the Mayans.

Jaime Awe, the head of the Belize Institute of Archaeology said that the news  was “like being punched in the stomach.” The pyramid was, he said, very clearly  an ancient structure, so there’s no chance the team didn’t realize what they  were doing. “These guys knew that this was an ancient structure. It’s just  bloody laziness,” Awe  told CBS News. He also said:

“Just to realize that the ancient Maya acquired all this building material to  erect these buildings, using nothing more than stone tools and quarried the  stone, and carried this material on their heads, using tump lines. To think that  today we have modern equipment, that you can go and excavate in a quarry  anywhere, but that this company would completely disregard that and completely  destroyed this building. Why can’t these people just go and quarry somewhere  that has no cultural significance? It’s mind-boggling.”

And it turns out that this is an ongoing problem in Belize. The country is  littered with ruins (although none as large as Nohmul), and construction  companies are constantly bulldozing them for road fill. An archaeologist at  Boston University said that several other sites have already been destroyed by  construction to use the rocks for building infrastructure. There isn’t much in  the way of protection or management of these sites in Belize, so many people who  live in the country either aren’t aware of their significance, or aren’t taught  to care.

The  Huffington Post has photographs from the scene, showing backhoes and  bulldozers chipping away at the stone structure. HuffPo ends this story on a  lighter note, pointing out that due to the destruction, archaeologists can now  see the inner workings of the pyramid and the ways they were built.

More from Smithsonian.com:

Why  Did the Mayan Civilization Collapse? A New Study Points to Deforestation and  Climate Change Spectral  Images of a Mayan Temple

Read more:  http://blogs.smithsonianmag.com/smartnews/2013/05/mayan-pyramid-destroyed-to-get-rocks-for-road-project/#ixzz2Tl92GQqV