You May Not Come With Me

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.
I forgive you
It all no
Longer matters
.
Through
Endless eons
I shall
Never forget
And you
Shall never
Know
.
Do I love
You still
Or no
.
If I hurt
Forever
It is of
No concern
.
There are
Places
You can
Never know
.
There are
Places
You can
Never go
.
I forgive you
For your
Judgments
Made in fear
Of the
Unknown
Hidden behind
Maligning
And betrayal
.
You have not
Yet seen me
You have
Dressed me in
Seven veils
Of illusion
Shimmering
Wavering
They flicker
In the space
Between us
.
Seven veils
Conceal
Hopeless love
And naked need
Seven Veils
Flutter
Covering
Flesh with
Shadows
And time
.
One veil is guilt
One veil is selfish
One veil is fear
One veil is denial
One veil is hubris
One veil is the unknown
One veil is betrayal
That cannot
Be thrown aside
I take all seven
To dance my
Path into being
.
I am as I am
I am lost
This is not
Important
.
I asked
When I
Was young
When I
Had the hubris
To think
I could carry
This load
Alone
I humbly
Begged
For more
Strength
.
This burden
That I carry
Has broken
My self
My heart
My body
Please allow
That I become
So old
That I
Do not care
.
I am here now
I no longer care
That I cry
An old woman’s
Bitter tears
.
I forgive you
That you don’t
Know why
Is no longer
Of importance
.
Through
Endless eons
I shall
Never forget
And you
Shall never
Know
.
Do I love
You still
Or no
.
This is of
No matter
.
There are
Places
You can
Never know
.
There are
Places
You can
Never go
.
You are
Gone from
My heart
.
This is your
Benediction
.
I shall
Observe you
With detachment
You are free
You do not
Understand
You have
No guilt
I take
It all
.
Your guilt
Is twined
In mine
Indivisible
I see it
You do not
Awareness
Makes it mine
.
There are
Places
You can
Never know
.
There are
Places
You can
Never go
.
This weaving
Is all mine
Our hopeless
Entanglement
Has become
The permanent
Pattern
.
I am broken
It is nothing
.
What was we
Does not matter
.
Through the
Endless eons
I shall
Never forget
And you
Shall never
Know
.
Do I love
You still
Or no
.
If I hurt
Forever
It is
To you of
No consequence
.
There are
Places
You can
Never know
.
There are
Places
You can
Never go
.
You can
Not come
With me
I am on
This path
Alone
.
Bear … 10.19.2014
ⓒBearspawprint2014
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Two (More)Young Tibetans Burn

Sometimes I think the quasi-offical Chinese response is that self-immolation saves the colonial government from the bother of prosecuting and torturing   the Tibetans, themselves..

Two Young Tibetans Burn

By:

December 9, 2012

Two Tibetan men self-immolated Saturday in separate protests against Chinese rule in Tibet, one of whom was a monk who called for the return of exiled spiritual leaders to the region, Tibetan sources said.

Kunchok Phelgyal, 24, a monk from Ngaba (in Chinese, Aba) Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture in China’s Sichuan province, and Pema Dorjee, a 23-year-old layman from Kanlho (Gannan) Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture in Gansu province perished in the acts.

Tibet claimsTibet claims

The new burnings were the 93rd and 94th Tibetan self-immolations since February 2009, when the fiery protests began.

“Today [Saturday], Kunchok Phelgyal, a monk of Sumdo Monastery in Dzoege (Ruo’ergai) county in Ngaba self-immolated around 5:20 p.m. against Chinese policy [in Tibet] and died,” two sources based in India’s Dharamsala hill town told RFA’s Tibetan Service.

They said the young monk had shouted out slogans while he sat with his hands folded in prayer after setting himself alight.

“He called for the long life of the [Tibetan spiritual leader in exile] Dalai Lama, and his return to Tibet,” said Kanyak Tsering and Lobsang Yeshi of the Kirti Monastery in Dharamsala, citing a source inside Tibet.

“He also called for the return of Kirti Kyabgon Rinpoche [the exiled Head Lama of the Kirti Monastery in Ngaba],” they said.

The sources said Kunchok Phelgyal had also voiced hope for a “reunion of Tibetans both inside and outside of Tibet.”

“As he was being burnt in protest, the monks of the [Sumdo] Monastery gathered around his burning body and prayed,” they said.

“Thereafter, his body was moved to his room inside the monastery and several hundred monks conducted prayers for him.”

The young Kunchok Phelgyal had been studying Buddhist dialectics at the Taktsang Lhamo Kirti Monastery since 2010 as a visiting monk from the Sumdo Monastery.

“He is the son of Kunchok Kyab (father) and Dolma Tso (mother) of the Gonda Dewa nomadic village under Dringwa township, Dzoege county in Ngaba,” Kanyag Tsering and Lobsang Yeshi said.

“He has nine family members including his parents.”

Layman burning

Also on Saturday, layman Pema Dorjee self-immolated in front of the Shitsang Monastery in Kanlho’s Luchu (Luqu) county, a source inside of Tibet told RFA’s Tibetan Service, speaking on condition of anonymity.

“Pema Dorjee, who is just 23, set himself on fire and protested against the Chinese occupation of Tibet,” said the source.

“This happened around 4:35 p.m. [Saturay], right in front of the door to Shitsang Monastery in Luchu county in Gansu. He was reported dead following his act of self-immolation.”

The source said that Pema Dorjee had torched himself as several Tibetans were gathering at the monastery for Gaden Ngacho, a special lamp offering prayer session.

The layman was from Chokor village, located around 30 kilometers (19 miles) from Shitsang Monastery.

China policy

The two new burnings drew immediate condemnation from the London-based Free Tibet, with director Stephanie Brigden saying she had “grave concerns” for the welfare of Tibetans living in the townships where Saturday’s protests occurred.

“China has announced collective punishments it intends to mete out on communities where protests take place, and Free Tibet has documented, time and again, China’s flagrant violations of human rights, including the use of lethal force, during the uprising in Tibet,” she said in a statement.

“Tibetans continue to call for freedom, despite the cost. It is beyond time for the world to take decisive action for Tibet.”

The protests follow a statement earlier this week by Maria Otero, the U.S. State Department’s Special Coordinator for Tibetan Issues, who said Washington was “deeply concerned and saddened” by the increasing frequency of Tibetan self-immolations.

“Chinese authorities have responded to these tragic incidents with measures that tighten already strict controls on freedoms of religion, expression, assembly and association of Tibetans,” she said.

“Official rhetoric that denigrates the Tibetan language, the Dalai Lama, and those who have self-immolated has further exacerbated tensions.”

Otero said that Beijing must address policies causing discontent in Tibetan areas, including controls on Tibetan Buddhist religious practice, education practices that undermine the Tibetan language, and the surveillance, arbitrary detention and disappearances of Tibetans.

Since late October, officials have responded to the burning protests by punishing the families and communities of protestors, characterizing immolations as criminal offenses, arresting those associated with the self-immolators, and deploying paramilitary forces and restricting communications and travel in areas where the protests have occurred.

Reported by Lobsang Sherab, Guru Choegyi, and Lumbum Tashi for RFA’s Tibetan Service. Translated by Karma Dorjee. Written in English by Joshua Lipes.