I am truly grateful for honesty.

Courage is required to face one’s self, and those whom you carry in your heart, without disguise.

Deceit is the most hurtful of betrayals.

Backstabbing and gossip and innuendo and pseudo-insights fueled by misunderstanding and half-truths can cause permanent harm of unknown magnitude through unknown generations.

Betrayal of confidence and trust can cause irreparable harm of unknown magnitude through unknown generations.

Pretending virtue, pretending to pray, doing the motions of rituals without true good intent can open the way for malignant forces and malicious entities to become part of your sphere. This can be a damaging influence, not only on your own life, but on those for whom you truly care —- If you are capable of love, what can cause more grief than to harm the innocents whom you truly care for? False intent can manifest as illness, physical damage in an accident of seemingly unknown cause, or shame, grief, and pain in the heart of the innocent one. Not knowing the why of how they feel, they can become self destructive. Please be of true good intent in all of your actions. If you say you are praying, if you are acting out the outward motions … do PRAY.

I am grateful for those who are whole with themselves and honest with the universe.

I am grateful, also, for the harsh lessons learned through painfully resolved deceit, knowing that some things will never be comfortably resolved. I know that ongoing deceit causes wounds which cannot heal, with unknown repercussions generating sadness as an essence. I also know that deceit can be resolved with honestly facing the deceit and its causes, this also causes wounds, but these wounds, though scarring, can heal.

Thank you for all that you have done.

Thank you. I thank you all.
09.01.2017 ⓒBearspawprint2017

“The truth shall set you free. But first it will piss you off.” Gloria Steinem


Quick Time Fish Dance

In the place were my heart should be
There are fish with teeth biting me
They flip and flop and twist and turn
Squeezing thick blood with an acid hot burn
The pain I hide still makes me tired
The Vegas message seems lost or mired
Impulse wandering along the meandering road
With athletic tone disguising rhythm slowed
In response talking drums boom out
Quick time beats their message shout
Dancing whales and fish in a salt blood sea
Swimming the tide rolling inside of me
The transcending race helps to keeps the beat
Choreographed for my flying fast Mercury feet
Yet, in the place were my heart should be
There are fish with teeth and they are biting me
Bear … 03.06.2014
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An apology unspoken
Is not.
Words of apology spoken
In lieu of meaning
Are not.
False apologies
Are apology not.
Bear … 03.02.2014

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Words spoken with no heart
Are yet spoken not.
Apologies With No Heart = False Apologies = Deceit

I’m sorry you feel that way.
I’m sorry that you have reacted that way.
Just let it go.
Let bygones be bygones.
I’m sorry that I can’t do anything right.
It’s too bad that you can’t get over this.
You are over reacting.
I don’t remember doing that.
I don’t remember saying that.
I want you to know that I am sorry.
What ever it is, I’m sorry.
You are making a mountain out of a molehill.
You are just being a drama queen.
I wasn’t aware that I was doing anything wrong.
This is not important.
This is not worth wasting time over.
I’m sorry that I can’t ever do anything to please you.
Let’s not dwell on this.
I wasn’t aware that I said that.
I’m sorry you ever met me.
I want you to believe that I am sorry.
I want you to understand that I am sorry.
I thought I did apologize.
I’m not going to apologize again.
That is all the apology you are going to get.
It’s not any use to even try.
I want you to believe that I did apologize.
I can’t undo what has been done, so just accept it.

Have any of those been tried on you?
Have you, yourself, pretended to apologize?

Suggested by                                                      False Apology         I’m sorry I’m not as perfect as you are.      Sorry means nothing, it is easy to say …

I want you to trust me.
I want you to forgive me.
I want you to believe I deserve forgiveness.
Words are cheap.
I want you to accept this token.
Whatever you say.
Bear … 03.02.2014

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