I went with my husband
To his cardiologist.
Then we came home and
I wrote Beauty Day.
I then drove back to
Jacksonville to do some errands.
Then when I was driving
Homeward at dusk ….


How can I keep such
An experience just for myself?
Just because I have
Trouble describing GLORY…
And I cannot restrain
My tears of gratitude…
Is that reason not to try?
I am trying.
Bear…. 03.12.2014

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Beauty Day was written the same day, but hours before …
I saw/experienced … what I saw … GOD SMILED was written after
Beauty Day
I am working on a small series titled  GOD SMILED
Bear … 03.14.2014

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I.      GOD SMILED      https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/14/i-god-smiled/

II.    GOD SMILED       https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/14/ii-god-smiled/

III.  GOD SMILED       https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/15/iii-god-smiled/

IV.   GOD SMILED      https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/15/iv-god-smiled/

V.     GOD SMILED      https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/16/v-god-smiled/

VI.   GOD SMILED       https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/17/vi-god-smiled/

VII.  GOD SMILED      https://bearspawprint.wordpress.com/2014/03/18/vii-god-smiled-___-i-am-grateful/



I Thank You


It takes a generosity of spirit to say thank you.
Only a heart recognizing the giver is able
To share gratitude with contentment.
Appreciation gone unsaid is piled up stingy,
It molders in the greedy takers soul. 
By withholding satisfaction selfish hoarding
Ignites hot resentment at the easing of need.
Gratitude thoughtfully related gently warms
Both the recipient and the giver’s hearts.
Kindness and effort work courageously together
Hand in hand like accepting and giving, 
But there is only truly helping another 
When there is gratitude in honorably receiving.
Gratitude unstated might really not be there.
How can the helper know 
If the helped one doesn’t share? 
There are secret gimme gimmies
 And takers that don’t care. 
They don’t recognize the sun
And they don’t acknowledge service.
Though the sun shines on all, there are
Shadows filled with fear of unfilled need.
If thank you is unsaid then the coveting ego 
Will continue to try to satisfy hidden greed.
The selfless has no gage to know if the largess
Of their bounty has touched another’s heart.
The effort of the giving may be wasted unless
The words THANK YOU do their essential part.
Thank you is mutually enhancing.
Thank you eases pain and satisfies the soul.
Thank you acknowledges the worthiness of the giver and of the recipient.
Thank you is beautiful. 
Thank you for all that you have done.
Thank you.
You have done so very much more than you know.
Thank you.  Thank you.
You know who you are and I thank you.
I know who you are and I thank you.
Thank you.
Bear … 02.28.2014
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I am so often much afraid
That my Sister Fate
Cannot not be delayed
What if I could not do what was asked
What if my weakness could not be masked
What if my spirit and my body should falter
What if there was no available energy alter
In the no ears eternal listening
I would hear small children wail
And the lonely echoing elders death rail
They count on me to be there
When other protections fail
Alternatives and safety-nets
Extra hands and hugs and meds
Food drink and pylons ropes and quilts and
Tools and toys jackets even entertainments
Whatever might be needed
I do make the effort I try to prepare
My private knowledge is that I know too often
I cannot be available to help all those for whom I care
Sometimes I am unable to do what I wish to dare
But thus far Eternal Power
Has allowed strength to be given me
I’ve been propped up and animated
With all around available Chi
I’ve been blessed with omens
And warnings and hints and clues
I usually know when soon
I must absolutely pay my dues
So I do what I can and
I try to hide my dread
When the visitor is Sister Fate
Beyond delay she refuses to cooperate
There will be the expected collapse
And my back won’t hold my weight
Reconnecting missing synapse
Are twisting spasms that I hate
Other symptoms cause courage to lapse
Yet again I have been blessed
By my delayed Sister Fate
I am grateful that when pressed
It was not I who was late
I was allowed to do what was needed
Even when I really couldn’t
I’m grateful that my pleas
For extra help were timely heeded
Safely hidden back at home
I scream and cry and wail
In this silent noisy Hell
My body and my spirit fail
Bear … 02.09.2014

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I’ve been cooking all night.

I’m cooking still.

Cooking, cooking, cooking

and keeping up with clean-up.

When the feasters are satisfied

Another night I’ll be up

What to do with leftovers

It’s up to me to decide.

Cooking, cooking, cooking,

And keeping up with clean up.

Yes, that is what I’m doing.


Though I dread all the holidays

I am grateful for my bounty

And all the feasting feasters, anyways.


Bear  11.28.2013