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BUMP ONNA LOG: Why don’t you just take a pill to MAKE yourself feel better?
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Bear … 06.09.2015
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Difficult Dawn
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Just before
Dawning sun
Arrives
Exhaustion
Too weary
To rest
Too late
For sleep
Something
Akin to
Hunger calls
My skin
To carry
The weight
Of my flesh
Quivering
Into day
Reluctance
Makes more
Effort
Required
Trembling
I watch
Dripping trees
Gain color
While busy
Birds call
Greetings
Singing
With their
Tasks I am
Burdened
With fear
Least I
Falter
My body
Unreliable
Does shame
Or love
Compel
Strength
Does my own
Pain matter
When there
Is work
To be done
Every moment
I must
Evaluate
How to
Do what
Needs doing
Without
Endangering
Others
What can be
Omitted
Easier to
Be alone
Selfishly
I pray
For myself
Please help
Me be cheerful
Today belongs
To my small
Granddaughter
The trees
The birds
Voice an answer
I am grateful
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Bear … 04.14.2015
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Enthralled
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To escape this mess
Which replenishes
Itself expanding
In exponential
Doubling lives
That kill
I shall interrupt
And digress
And drink coffee
And swing my feet
While sitting on
The bulldozed porch
Of your memory house
Or in the ashes
Of my ancient
Burned Tangerine Tree
Or relaxing reposed
In the Aspen Grove
That hides
Quaking shimmering
Under side-walks
And grocery stores
I shall speak to you
Or no one and jabber
Adult nonsense
Hello I am fine as
I pretend not to weep
You will recognize me
By the smile in my eyes
As I sit trapped
On the floor entralled
By children
Drowning in laughter
I cannot rise
Above such moments
Which are
Eternity preserved
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Bear … July 2014
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Clarity
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The most intimate
Whispers must be yelled
Loudly and clearly
Distinctly pronounced
And still there are gaps
For your mind to fill in
Who knows what you hear
Your mind is too quick
The acoustic spaces are filled
Wrong words interpreted
To assume minor fears
In the murmurs between
Only part do you catch
But so fast is your mind
That all unawares
Audio space unheard really
Empty or blurred
Seems no longer there
Ideas are lost
Feelings are hurt
Care is deflected
Cochlear confusion supreme
Misplaced fury
Swirls ’round
At the chaos profound
Decisions are made
And stubbornly have stayed
Useless to explain
All meaning through
Vestibular understanding
Is gone quite lost
Too involved feeling pain
It’s the stubbornness
That impairs
With foolish pride
As a filter
All changed is the essence
Of everything I say
It hurts quite a bit
Knowing your secret thoughts
Given away by replacing
Your audio censored
By hearing not there
Much easier to say nothing
To ignore the spectrum missing
But that is not right
Clarity and understanding
Are worth the painful fight
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Bear … 02.06.2014
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Too Fast Slow Dance of Death
Rare footage of Helen Keller Speaking
This was originally linked via Smithsonian Rare Footage of Helen Keller Speaking
Exit
There are fingernails in my brain.
This hot and burning pain,
I do swear,
Is more than I can bear.