.
.
From where
May I
Summon energy?
My body
Has none.
.
Nerve fatigue
Overwhelms.
I am running
In deficit.
.
Sometimes
Effort,
Beyond my
Capabilities,
Is required.
.
I must borrow
From tomorrow.
.
The Chi is
Becoming equalized
Within my body,
And surrounding.
.
I must evoke
A great deal
Of Granny Magic.
.
I am grateful.
The Magic
Is possible.
.
This long day
Will become
A happy memory.
.
The morrow
Of returns
Will come
Soon enough.
.
Today,
A small child
Is expecting
Her Granny,
With open arms.
.
Granny Magic
Turns everything
Into love filled fun.
Children know.
.
.
Bear … 09.02.2014
ⓒBearspawprint 2014
Tag Archives: co-morbidities
wretched mother
.
wretched mother
mother of misery
it is because
your daughters
were your
daughters born
first and last
as daughters
you believed
cursed as yourself
did understand
that you hid
your true self
away behind shadow
personalities
acceptable for
volunteer hospital
gray ladies and
lovers and husbands
pretend men for
your pretend woman
the mundane horror
you wished to be
sympathized as
treatable simply
by twelve steps
so easy
for which you
had such contempt
that you cursed
yourself acquiring
more pain more
curses to hide that
there was no help
no cure for
the affliction
of your madness
your genius of
understanding
too easily
your suffering despair
for your desire to be
liked and wanted
and loved and
forgiven for
being born
too late to
take back
to undo your birth
cursing your own
mother’s womb
for bearing you
destroying your
mother’s life
your birth
revealing
your father’s
perversion
and your innocence
you never recognized
hidden by longing
hunkering behind
flames and smoking shadows
obscuring your outline
occluding the vision
of those around you
in a murky world of
pain and misery
your sons your
daughters grew
drinking smoke and
eating shadows
watching
chimeras dance
holding hands with
devils you married
the lullabies
you sang of your
unloved heart
knowing both that
you were the queen
of most loveable
and loved for
your illusions
and unloved
untouched
in your true self
save by tormented
captive children
while you danced
with your lovers
your jin husbands
drinking gin
cursing your self
cursing your children
cursing your nothing gods
cursing your death
cursing your salvation
wretched mother
mother of misery
.
.
Bear … 06.30.2014
ⓒ Bearspawprint 2014
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