So much has been right,
Of which we do not
Want to loose sight;
But to ignore the wrong
Makes the hurt
Last too long.
.
Agawela 3.15.2021
ⓒBearspawprint2021
Category Archives: Narcissist
The Silence of Thorns
No longer
May I live
Near human
People so politely
Ignorant I scream
Uncaring civilized
And cry wailing
Too much and
Not enough bereft
Of the Veil
Some days all nights
Continuously calling
Screaming despair
While writing
While sewing
While making love
While mending
While wandering silent
Creating reasons
Of disillusioned basic
Belief agreement
Thinking unacceptable
Discordant weeping
While cooking sleeping
Other beings cringe
Shrinking from
My broken primal
Screaming wailing
Cries follow me
My own meteor tail
Of illuminated grief
What will never be
Yet waves flow
Rippling eternal
Illusion adorns my
Body as garments
Woven from despair
Sorrowing siren calls
I may never find the
Echoing perimeter
Of pain heartache
Buzzing louder
Harmonic pulses
Louder scream song
Enduring in the shouted
Silence continuously
I wail Anguish
Impenetrable
This barrier of Banshee
Screeching thorns
.
Agawela 03-13-2021
ⓒBearspawprint2021
Dissonance
By the riverside,
We walked, myself, and three dogs.
The dogs were content.
.
Bear 23November2020
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Positive Talk About SARS-COVID-19 (Bwahahahaha)
SOMETHING POSITIVE AND UPBEAT FOR YOU NO-MASKERS (unless you absolutely have to) THAT CAN ONLY TOLERATE POSITIVE GRIN GRINNY GUIDELINE GRUNTS as information; WHO CONSIDER COMMON SENSE TO BE A NEGATIVE INFLUENCE. WELL NO COMMON SENSE WRITTEN HERE. BACK ATCHA’ DEARIES
However, the BTW, at the end, is sensible.
It will be OK. 🌻 We just won’t test to confirm and then there won’t be any stats to count, hence no spike, no new infections. Viola!! 🌻
And since we know that two layer cotton masks work absolutely better than no masks, we can just slim down the anti-masker overpopulation and that will be good for everyone! 🌻 Hooray there might even be a surplus of empty housing … that no one can afford! 🌻
As for dead people, just say that any extra, two hundred thousand plus, in USA, dead people died from some other problem or co-morbidity and that this silly fickle (mutating) virus was just on the sidelines watching. 🌻
Don’t worry about any healthcare workers such as nurses or doctors or technicians or housekeeping staff, or any of those, folks. After all, risk is just part of the job. Right? Sensible people wouldn’t do a risky job like that, taking care of you, and other sick or injured persons. 🌻
There. All better. No problems in Florida. 🌻
The 37(+) dead in Nassau county don’t count, because they are dead already. 🌻
Nothing negative here. All copacetic 🌻 My goodness, even the resulting disabilities and lingering ill health are positive, because they are getting MORE, you know, POSITIVE, PLUS, not less, not minus.
BTW, It is OK to change your mind. Some of the best people have done so.
Keep in mind that old people did not get old by acting foolishly to endanger others and self, like no-maskers.
26Septmber2020
Agawela ©Bearspawprint2020
I should not have said stupid. I should have said foolish. Gonna change it. I’ve done plenty of foolish things, but mostly they did not endanger others. That is a criteria I took into account.
Dark Dance
Straddling fault lines,
We dance above the abyss.
There is no safety.
.
Bear 30January2020
ⓒBearspawprint2020
Black Dog
.
There is
A Black Dog
In the corner.
He is trapped
By my despair.
His beauty
Is my anguish.
His glory
Is my pain.
He whimpers
And he howls.
Black Dog’s
Escape is fear.
Death, betrayal
And indifference
Call Black Dog’s
Other name.
.
4 November 2019
Bear ©Bearspawprint2019
Echo
.
.
I am
The Blank Space
Within
Your Heart
I am
This Voice
This blowing wind
This katajjaq
Singing calling
Chanting
A whirling of
No words
Do you not feel
This Voice
This blowing wind
I am
The Banshee
Scream
The Blank Space
Within
Your Heart
I call with my
Twisted face
I love you
But what about
This Voice
This blowing wind
I am not dead
I did not die
I live within
I am the
Swirling
Empty Hollowness
Within
Your Heart
Should
Your Heart
Stop it’s
Pulsing beat
Counterpoint
Throbbing
It is I
This Voice
Wailing
This blowing wind
That shall
Drift softly
Away humming
Descending crescendo
Finally to still
Leaving empty
Drafty and echoing
The blank space
Within
Your Heart
This Voice
This blowing wind
Could never
Fill
.
.
Bear … 08.01.2019
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old poem reworked
.
.
Hollow Flesh
.
.
His flesh is empty.
His voice is
The Black Wind
Carrying no message.
Behind his eyes
Linger screams
Of children,
Destroyed.
His ears are stoppered
With deceit and lies.
He is death
Clothed in
Platitudes.
He is Hollow Flesh.
.
Agawela 05/19/2019
©Bearspawprint 2019
Lotus Grows In Mud
.
.
Their hearts
Opened
Revealing
Only mud.
One
Lotus seed
Was
Planted
Within
Each heart.
In which
Lifetime
Will awareness
Sprout?
The Lotus
Flower
Exists
Fully formed
Within
The seed.
Waiting
And eternity
Are one.
Bear Agawela 0/16/2019
©Bearspawprint 2019
Gaslighting 💔 Difficult Questions
Gaslighting
Difficult Questions –“Asking for a friend” — doing some research for a story
💔
1. Can persons who, in their personal relationships, habitually, and with great cleverness, and feigned reasonableness “gaslight” EVER sincerely apologize and express true remorse?
2. Can charming and accomplished persons, who habitually “gaslight” in personal relationships, EVER, be trustworthy in personal relationships?
3. Can persons who chronically “gaslight” EVER acknowledge to themselves, or anyone else, what they are doing?
4. Is it possible for persons, who are comfortable with “gaslighting”, to resolve, with TRUE INTENT, to change their behavior patterns?
5. Can persons who “gaslight” EVER even WANT to change behavior?
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Is there ANYTHING within a personal relationship that can curtail “gaslighting” or mitigate the damage?
Are any of the following feasible?
a. Choose neutral circumstances and talk, in an educational way, about gaslighting and consequences.
b. Whenever one becomes aware that gaslighting and/or deception is happening, call out the gaslighter.
c. Negotiate.
e. Seek professional counseling.
f. Give up and part ways, as much as possible.
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Is there anyway to make GASLIGHTING not be, at all, rewarding to the gaslighter?
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Most sources available, via the internet, suggest that {f. Give up and part ways, as much as possible.} is the only healthy scenario.
05/14/2019
Sharon Rudd
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