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One dark morning
Clouds ashes brown light
I crawled from my shelter
I stood in the gloom
I welcomed the new day
I appeared to be living
Walking to the walls
Which surrounded me
Surrounding my home
Surrounded the world
I began to climb
I had grown strong
In my aloneness
Every step had been
A dancing poem
Every poem had been sung
Every song beat my drum
My heart was thunder
My ears heard the silence
I climbed hand over hand
My bare feet seeking purchase
I climbed I climbed
I climbed singing
The Eagle’s song
No Eagle’s heard me
No one could hear
The Eagle’s song
I sang I sang I sang
And sometimes
I paused to scream
I screamed I screamed I screamed
I feared my screaming
Might never stop
I was alone
I disturbed no one
High on the walls of the abyss
I looked around
Below was darkness
Above was gloom
Shedding ashes
Upward I struggled
I struggled I struggled
Reaching what seemed
I flat place I stopped
Resting Resting I rested
Below was darkness
Above was gloom
Shedding ashes
I wanted to scream more
The ashes were heavy
Upward I climbed
The gloom darkened into
Blackness below
And blackness above
Suspended in darkness
The solid wall of the abyss
To which I clung
Named itself hope
In darkness I climbed
Weary weary so weary
Something was new
There was no wall
Above no wall
No wall before
I rolled over a ledge
Onto flat darkness
Darkness before
Darkness behind
Darkness above
I slept on the flat darkness
And dreamed
I dreamed of gloom
Lightening the morning
And ashes falling
In my sleep I screamed
Awakening
I screamed I screamed I screamed
There were no echoes
The morning was brown gloom
Ashes fell
No walls surrounded me
I could see flatness
In all directions
A brown gloomy sky
Arched over the world
With no walls
Ashes fell and I stood
Each step puffing ashes
Ashes fell into my footprints
Erasing
Erasing my passage
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Bear…12.17.2015
ⓒBearspawprint2015
I had a similar dream. I cried and cried and cried and cried
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Sweet Lisa, this is not a dream, there is a dream within the narrative, which also not a dream. Sometimes I am completely alone and this is one of the landscapes I traverse.
That is why I had to write the next bit about unrequited love. It is too irresponsible to leave readers in that landscape of ashes and hopelessness.
I pray that when you cried you were not alone. I pray that now you can look around and see color and feel the touch of someone who loves you. XOXOXO
God bless you, sweet and soft Lisa of the Light.
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I knew exactly what you meant. I just decided to phrase it simply. I was with the Christ, thankfully or I don’t know what would have happened. Your unrequited love post pulled me from the “quicksand”. I have a hard time talking about it. XO
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You phrase everything beautifully. Yes, when your Savior is with you you can feel what you must feel, the ashes and despair, and still live on in grace. ❤ Sweet Lisa of the Light.
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Yes…exactly. Thank you.
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Wow you drew me into the dream with me. Your words were gripping and descriptions convincing. Love and hugs, N 🙂 ❤
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But you knew you were making progress!!
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Such a sweet optimist you are. Thank you Willow. Does everything always come out for the best?
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No I am wading in shit right now but if I loose hope and optimism I shall drown …
Equally I don’t want you to drown either! ❤
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‘Tis the season …but no we shall NOT drown. It will all turn out for the best. Nothing else is acceptable. Thank you for all that you have done. XOXOXO
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Big hugs ❤
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// reminds me of cats this does // well done // thank you xz
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Hi David. Cats … as in panthers or cats as in youtube amusing cats? Or???
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// what a backlash! // i was just exchanging my opinion! // only joking. black cats // also if u were younger i would probably fall in love with you. // thank you xz
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I immediately thought of this sortr of cat when I read your reply. In 40 years I will be 106.
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